Do You Trust Me?

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not [do not depend] on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge [submit to] Him, and He will make your paths straight." ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

Back towards the beginning of May, The Lord asked me a question: 

"Do you trust Me?" 

I had been praying about something that I felt would be an okay and positive thing, but I wasn't sure it was what I was supposed to do. Looking back, I don't remember ever getting a "yes" or "no" answer; it was always the question. Our conversations (prayers) usually went along these lines:

"Do you trust Me?"

"Yes, Lord, I trust You. But I don't really understand why I shouldn't.."

"Do you trust Me?"

"Yes, Lord. But what about..?"

"Do you trust Me?"

"Yes. Yes, I do."

There is not time nor need to share every detail of this story; I simply want to share with you that The Lord is faithful. He knew what was ahead of me, and He worked things out in His way and His timing. But I needed to trust. When I chose to trust that God had everything under control, He gave me peace that I wasn't expecting. 

After a week or two of constantly reaffirming my trust in whatever God was doing, regardless of whether or not I understood, another situation came up. This time we didn't have insurance to cover the van while my dad and I drove it from Texas to Alaska. Frustration built as we seemed to come upon dead end after dead end. (by the way, this was all happening on the day I had planned to drive the van home) As we sat waiting with what seemed to be no options left, I shared my earlier story with a friend. She replied, "Maybe He's asking you to trust Him in this situation too." She was right. And I did trust Him. But I was a bit frustrated at the moment. We needed insurance. And couldn't seem to get it. As I later drove across town, resigned to the fact that the only option we had left was a process that would take 2-3 days minimum, I received a phone call. The phone call was from Pastor Gary in Kodiak. His words: "Well.. I got us insurance." What?!? His next words: "Do you trust me?" Yes, Pastor Gary (AND GOD!), I trust you. Again, no need for all the details, but it was literally a miracle that we were able to get insurance coverage without going through that days-long process. Thank You, Lord!

It is a question that is there way more often than we probably recognize: "Do we trust Him?" 

Do we trust Him when we want to do things our way instead of His? Do we trust Him when things don't go the way we expected them to go? Do we trust Him when we lose those that we love so dearly? Do we trust Him enough to know we will be okay? Do we trust that He holds eternity in the palm of His hand? He is so trustworthy. The Lord is so faithful. We don't need to understand; He simply asks us to trust. Hold tight to Him. He's not letting go. What an amazing God, worthy of our worship and praise forever.